It took me awhile to say I’m an Artist, I’m a Photographer, I’m a Mixed Media and Collage artist- I was born with this gift that I can say for sure. I also believe that each one of us have an Artistic or Creative side within our SOUL!- It can be a writer, a photographer, artist, crafting, designing, collage, scrap-booking, jewelry, etc- It’s our duty and I say duty cause no one can tell you when it should happen, to find that calling. Some of us tap into it from an early age, some still searching for it and others pass it by- I have a quote that I created- ” You say that you are not a CREATIVE person. How do you know? The moment you hear that knock, you don’t even open the door!”…Oh I so believe in this. How many people I have encounter and they say, wow I wish I can do the type of art you do, but I’m not artistic nor creative at all- Right their you have locked up that door and threw away the key!.. You need to search it, you need to try things and within that you will find what is that you connects with you-
My Journey has been quite a rare and AMAZING one. I started out wanting to be a Scientist, then an Architect, after it was Fashion that ruled over it all- That is part of my DNA cause of my mom’s sister that was a Couture seamstress and I still remember in her Atelier in Venezuela watching her bead dresses by hand!!!!! I was like Wow!. I tried so hard to become a Fashion Designer but not having the money to make it happen was tough plus In that time telling your mom you wanted to be a Fashion Designer was like digging your own grave at an early age! -lol lol. So what I did was I became a visual merchandiser by saying a white lie! I told the first store I worked for that I have done it before. Now, the wildest thing of all this was that I knew that I can do it! So, she looks at me and tells me, oh you have? I think she some what knew I was lying and tells me, ok so you see those mannequins their, I want you to pull the fashion , dress them and call me. Suddenly I was HOLY CRAP!!! What have I done?..I have never, ever in my life undressed a mannequin not to mention pull her her apart!.. But again, I knew I could do it and with full force into the project I did 4 mannequins, even 2 that were on top of a ledge. I was like, did I just do this? She comes over and looks at me with mouth open and say’s when can you start?…That’s how my Journey into visual happened.
This Journey became my tight rope for one reason, I thought to myself, well if I can’t be a Fashion Designer, at least I will be close enough to work with Fashion!-( Don’t let that happen- it stopped me from many things). From Visual merchandiser, to Lead visual stylist, to Visual Manager and Visual Director, this was over 25 years in the field. I worked so hard, I took so much crap, I was used, I was lied , I was taken advantage through this journey but every time I fell to the floor, I got up, dusted myself up and kept going. No one was going to get in my way. I worked for Jean Nicole, Macy’s, Nordstrom, Jpeterman, Zara, St Johns in 5th ave, Fendi, Armani, Bloomingdales, I freelanced and my end of the Journey was with Neiman Marcus. I love what I did and I knew that I was danmmmm good at it! Cause I believed in myself and I got to the top not by being someone’s favorite but by busting my ASS!!!. I learned so much from all this. I worked with great teams, to horrible ones and certain one’s that I guess thought because I was their manager I should do their work. The one thing I learned from all this was, to be fare, always try my best to be a good manager, help others and not kiss anyone’s ass either!… As a manager I hold you responsible for your actions and the type of work you put out their! I had a wonderful mentor that made me try everything in the field. I loved doing window’s and fashion, and he told me, you are AMAZING at what you do, but you need to step out of the box and learn the ropes! I thanked him for that. Their was no excuses, I was in charge of lighting, styling, cleaning up, etc. In Neiman Marcus I was burnt out. My team was good and with the exception of one that was great, one other was like, hell to me, yet I respect people and one thing I hate is, do not take me for some stupid person or take advantage of me. This team was old school, they have been in the store for over 10 years, even more. It was so hard to mold them. I didn’t want to do it any longer, I left after 2 1/2 years to come into this new Journey I have been tapping along the way.. I have no regrets at all.
From Photography, to Mixed Media artist, Collage, and Abstract- This has been my calling. Look at how long it took me to tap into what I’m doing now, but I never doubted itself, I never let anyone say what was good for me or not, I kept learning, experimenting, opening doors, trying new things, letting go what I didn’t like and becoming the person I’m right now at 49!- It wasn’t easy, it’s been hard times, good times and great times. Over all, the trick is on how you tackle each thing. I’m still learning and at times I feel like giving up, but I look back at all the hard work I have put and that along the way everything that happened was suppose to be the way it was- I may have had a vision of what I wanted to be, but God has the edit part of the film!- I’ve lived in so many places- from, Miami, New York, San Francisco, Houston, Dallas, Albuquerque, Reno, St Louis and now Santa Fe- Each one giving me a new meaning to my Journey, each one having to be their to tap into what I wanted and what I didn’t want, each one to get me to where I’m right now as I’m writing this long post, but I wouldn’t have it any other way!- Their is so much I still have to do in this world!- My 1/2 part of my purpose is to bring happiness to the world with my work, my art and photography. The other 1/2 is learning more, believing in myself, taking risks and chances and making myself a better person for me and of course loving who I’m with all my faults and errors!. At 49 I bring to this world that has so much Chaos, Hurting, Disasters, and Horrible people that hurt others, my art and my photography- I’m not a fine art artist nor a fine arts photographer, I’m my own artist and photographer, I’m not here to compete with anyone or make money be my #1 out look to what I do. What I do is my PASSION and my PASSION follows me through my journeys. I’m just starting to live my DREAM pretty much with nothing, but it is my DUTY to follow it wherever it takes me and search into more opportunities!- So I will leave you with another quote I created- And remember, follow your DREAMS and trust your Soul, cause they know what you should be doing!…” It Doesn’t matter what ANYONE thinks about you! At the end of the day, it’s your LIFE, it’s your DECISION and it’s your own personal JOURNEY”…