It’s amazing the determination we have when we want to make changes to our lives. For awhile now, I’ve been zoned out of the things I honestly have to say bring me JOY, PEACE and TRANQUILITY. It has taken me many years plus the 2 in St Louis to realize that deep inside I just wasn’t happy. It wasn’t money I needed, or it wasn’t materialistic things either. I was missing this inner connection that along the way I lost. I felt empty and not fulfilled even thought I had a pretty good life and honestly I can’t complaint but it was that void, that void that calls you out at anytime of the day. I love the work I do but it has been something I’ve been doing for so many years that I believe along the way, it was just time to let it rest. Yet, I didn’t, I kept accepting these jobs and relocations in HOPES that I would find that missing link, but it was no where to be found. Corporate America and it’s lifestyle are NOT for me any longer…I don’t care for it and I don’t care climbing any type of ladder either! I felt that it was for me a ‘TRAP” and ” FAKE”. When you think you can trust that person, you just don’t realize that you have a HUGE knife in your back. It takes you away from what LIFE is and from family, friends and the things you love. Along the way I DISCOVERED that I had so many other talents and I started to explore. Long story short, I had tapped into what this amazing UNIVERSE had stored for me. My Art, Photography, Creating with my hands, Visualizing my work, connecting with other Artist, Crafting, designing my hand made cards, Nature, Simplicity, Peace, Tranquility, and Solitude where the missing links to it all. Even though I love doing displays, store front windows and merchandising I new that it was time to put it aside and start my new path. I left my business in Virginia City to explore working with Neiman Marcus and this was a sweet and bitter trip. I stayed 2 years to see if it would work and even thought I feel at times that it was a mistake another side of me says, no it wasn’t a mistake. It was what I was suppose to experience to realize, what I knew and know now. The moral of it all: Follow your DREAMS ….
You can’t let anyone tell you what’s best for you or not. You follow the PATH you feel is right. You learn and make the best of every day and you don’t APOLOGIZE for who you are. It doesn’t matter what anyone THINKS! And you don’t let other people get in your way. You do the best and keep at it. At work, looking back I can’t BELIEVE I let co-workers ruin my days and my visions. I wanted to be a fair Boss and work as a team, but it just didn’t matter how good you were to them or how you tried your best. At the end, they just didn’t care and still were never satisfied. So, now I live where I’ve always wanted to be Santa Fe, NM! I made it happen and I did what was best for me, I left it all behind to be in the mountains, with Nature, wild life, hiking, and yes getting back to my Art, Photography and Creating my life all over again. I’m in the process of doing an online shop to sell my passion, my creations and give back to others with my gifts. I’ve been working hard creating new work and it’s all their waiting to be displayed. Yes, it has taken me all these years to re-connect back to my path and even thought things can change along the way, it just feels right. I found home, it found me once again and now I have a BLANK canvas to paint my new path. It’s all about colors, life, people, living, loving, and accepting that the Universe and God do play a huge part of it all. I feel very happy and I hope to soon start selling and making a life of my own… I’m glad to be back and I hope that I will post more often… Thanks, to all that keep following me through these crazy ups and downs… Namaste…Laz