Happy Thanksgiving-

Wishing you all a wonderful Thanksgiving!- I will be leaving today and will not have access to a laptop, disconnecting my life until Friday! Hope this Thanksgiving is spent with your family or friends and may it be a blessed one- Hugs to all. Laz




Lost in The Woods- My Journey…

I’m trying to understand so many things about my Journey- That’s just how I feel, lost in the woods and trying to find my way back. I’m one to say that sometimes” We need to lose ourselves to find ourselves”- My creative mind is in a cage of Chaos. Many people find one medium to their art life but for me, that seems unreal!. I just can’t, my mind won’t let me, my hands won’t let me, my eye’s won’t let and my Soul won’t let me. I have tried and I just can’t do it. I wonder sometimes if being a creative soul is more of a damnation than a gift. My mind won’t stop seeing everything in a creative way. One moment I’m doing Collage and then suddenly I’m doing gift tags, and then I jump into doing my hand made cards, and then I see a blank canvas and I’m doing Abstract, Mixed Media and then I’m thinking I can do Encaustic, and so on. It’s a constant battle my Creative mind, my Soul and how much I can handle it all. When I decide to make the jump with no safety net moving to Santa Fe, I had a vision. I wanted to live in the mountains, I wanted to open up my own cool, funky little shop and I wanted to teach. I took out all my savings and without thinking it to many times, I decided to jump! I left a great paying job doing displays, windows, and managing a team to make this vision possible. Don’t get me wrong I have no regrets what so ever on what I did!- I’m a risk taker and with that said, I have been able to learn so much about myself. Now I’m here, trying to make connections, letting the Universe know my plans, my vision, my passion and wanting to give back to others with my talents. It has been some what tough. Not many people care to help or lead you to the right information. I’ve been doing the Sunday Artist market every Sunday and even though it’s a good venue to do, I feel that from Monday to Saturday I’m missing out in selling my art and I can’t find anything that I can afford to even take my next jump cause people think that If you live in Santa Fe,you can pay 1,500 dollars for a 300 sq ft space! People seem to be selfish and not even try to work with others who are trying to make their DREAMS happen. Then they think that because you live in the mountains with a killer view that LIFE is just perfect and that you wake up everyday with your coffee and sit outside contemplating life with no worries- Well, the wake up call is that living in the mountains and being nurtured by Nature doesn’t solve your problems- It helps you to some point to heal your Soul, but it doesn’t solve the problems. So much to grasp at this moment in my life when I’m about to let go of my late 40’s and start the 5O!- Sometimes I feel I left some part of myself in some road I may have stopped a long the way to rest and forgot to wait for it cause I got in the car and hauled ass!- I question at times, I’m I running to fast? I’m even thinking to ahead of my thoughts? I’m not trying to sound that I’m complaining about my life cause I’m very blessed and very lucky to have this opportunity and have a creative mind to make beautiful things to make others smile and feel good. I know how lucky I’m and every night before I go to sleep I let God know how great-full  I’m  for all he has given me and even when I have the time to open my porch doors and sit outside with the stars that look like the most beautiful art work over me and let the Universe know that I’m also great full for all this!- Even when times are hard, I seem to make it through- I live with very little now days and a very simple life. So, yes I’m grateful and “NO” I’m not complaining.- I’m just wondering if I’m doing things right? I guess being lost in the woods is another different Journey that connects in finding that other path which will connect to one. Maybe I’m feeling that it’s my time to shine and I don’t see that light or it’s very dim. Maybe being lost in the woods will bring me back to that person I once left behind, I guess time will tell. I hope that this leap of Faith I took is the right road that will lead me back and connect me with my missing links….


The Coming of Fall-

I took a trip today towards ” Barrilas Peak” to watch the Aspens dressed in their Fall attire. What a beautiful trip through the mountains and small towns. As I was driving I did notice that quite few of the Aspens were bare down to their limbs, yet still they hold a sculpture body!- One thing I have noticed is how the Aspen trunks at time have some sort of design like if the Aspens were artist painting on each other-I always notice an eye just looking right at ya, and who I’m I to say is not? I like to keep my mind wild and IMAGINATIVE!- I’m so blessed to be surrounded by such beauty. Everyday I wake up with a huge smile on my face and every night I go to sleep telling God” Thank you for all this”- Can’t imagine not having it any other way. I’m connected to nature and nature is connected to me- I was able to find some beautiful Aspens still dressed in their Fall fashion, even thought we are not into full blown Fall, they lose their leaves so fast that you need to capture it ASAP-..Fall is my favorite season over all- I love the crisp air going through my open windows, I love to see the pallet of colors that it creates, after all Mother Nature is a true artist!-.. Enjoy my journey… Laz





Tapping into what you learn from your Journey-

It took me awhile to say I’m an Artist, I’m a Photographer, I’m a Mixed Media and Collage artist- I was born with this gift that I can say for sure. I also believe that each one of us have an Artistic or Creative side within our SOUL!- It can be a writer, a photographer, artist, crafting, designing, collage, scrap-booking, jewelry, etc- It’s our duty and I say duty cause no one can tell you when it should happen, to find that calling. Some of us tap into it from an early age, some still searching for it and others pass it by- I have a quote that I created- ” You say that you are not a CREATIVE person. How do you know? The moment you hear that knock, you don’t even open the door!”…Oh I so believe in this. How many people I have encounter and they say, wow I wish I can do the type of art you do, but I’m not artistic nor creative at all- Right their you have locked up that door and threw away the key!.. You need to search it, you need to try things and within that you will find what is that you connects with you-

My Journey has been quite a rare and AMAZING one. I started out wanting to be a Scientist, then an Architect, after it was Fashion that ruled over it all- That is part of my DNA cause of my mom’s sister that was a Couture seamstress and I still remember in her Atelier in Venezuela watching her bead dresses by hand!!!!! I was like Wow!. I tried so hard to become a Fashion Designer but not having the money to make it happen was tough plus In that time telling your mom you wanted to be a Fashion Designer was like digging your own grave at an early age! -lol lol. So what I did was I became a visual merchandiser by saying a white lie! I told the first store I worked for that I have done it before. Now, the wildest thing of all this was that I knew that I can do it! So, she looks at me and tells me, oh you have? I think she some what  knew I was lying and tells me, ok so you see those mannequins their, I want you to pull the fashion , dress them and call me. Suddenly I was HOLY CRAP!!! What have I done?..I have never, ever in my life undressed a mannequin not to mention pull her her apart!.. But again, I knew I could do it and with full force into the project I did 4 mannequins, even 2 that were on top of a ledge. I was like, did I just do this? She comes over and looks at me with mouth open and say’s when can you start?…That’s how my Journey into visual happened.


This Journey became my tight rope for one reason, I thought to myself, well if I can’t be a Fashion Designer, at least I will be close enough to work with Fashion!-( Don’t let that happen- it stopped me from many things). From Visual merchandiser, to Lead visual stylist, to Visual Manager and Visual Director, this was over 25 years in the field. I worked so hard, I took so much crap, I was used, I was lied , I was taken advantage through this journey but every time I fell to the floor, I got up, dusted myself up and kept going. No one was going to get in my way. I worked for Jean Nicole, Macy’s, Nordstrom, Jpeterman, Zara, St Johns in 5th ave, Fendi, Armani, Bloomingdales, I freelanced and my end of the Journey was with Neiman Marcus. I love what I did and I knew that I was danmmmm good at it! Cause I believed in myself and I got to the top not by being someone’s favorite but by busting my ASS!!!. I learned so much from all this. I worked with great teams, to horrible ones and certain one’s that I guess thought because I was their manager I should do their work. The one thing I learned from all this was, to be fare, always try my best to be a good manager, help others and not kiss anyone’s ass either!… As a manager I hold you responsible for your actions and the type of work you put out their! I had a wonderful mentor that made me try everything in the field. I loved doing window’s and fashion, and he told me, you are AMAZING at what you do, but you need to step out of the box and learn the ropes! I thanked him for that. Their was no excuses, I was in charge of lighting, styling, cleaning up, etc. In Neiman Marcus I was burnt out. My team was good and with the exception of one that was great, one other was like, hell to me, yet I respect people and one thing I hate is, do not take me for some stupid person or take advantage of me. This team was old school, they have been in the store for over 10 years, even more. It was so hard to mold them. I didn’t want to do it any longer, I left after 2 1/2 years to come into this new Journey I have been tapping along the way.. I have no regrets at all.




From Photography, to Mixed Media artist, Collage, and Abstract- This has been my calling. Look at how long it took me to tap into what I’m doing now, but I never doubted itself, I never let anyone say what was good for me or not, I kept learning, experimenting, opening doors, trying new things, letting go what I didn’t like and becoming the person I’m right now at 49!- It wasn’t easy, it’s been hard times, good times and great times. Over all, the trick is on how you tackle each thing. I’m still learning and at times I feel like giving up, but I look back at all the hard work I have put and that along the way everything that happened was suppose to be the way it was- I may have had a vision of what I wanted to be, but God has the edit part of the film!- I’ve lived in so many places- from, Miami,  New York, San Francisco, Houston, Dallas, Albuquerque, Reno, St Louis and now Santa Fe- Each one giving me a new meaning to my Journey, each one having to be their to tap into what I wanted and what I didn’t want, each one to get me to where I’m right now as I’m writing this long post, but I wouldn’t have it any other way!- Their is so much I still have to do in this world!- My 1/2 part of my purpose is to bring happiness to the world with my work, my art and photography. The other 1/2 is learning more, believing in myself, taking risks and chances and making myself a better person for me and of course loving who I’m with all my faults and errors!. At 49 I bring to this world that has so much Chaos, Hurting, Disasters, and Horrible people that hurt others, my art and my photography- I’m not a fine  art artist nor a fine arts photographer, I’m my own artist and photographer, I’m not here to compete with anyone or make money be my #1 out look to what I do. What I do is my PASSION and my PASSION follows me through my journeys. I’m just starting to live my DREAM pretty much with nothing, but it is my DUTY to follow it wherever it takes me and search into more opportunities!- So I will leave you with another quote I created- And remember, follow your DREAMS and trust your Soul, cause they know what you should be doing!…” It Doesn’t matter what ANYONE thinks about you! At the end of the day, it’s your LIFE, it’s your DECISION and it’s your own personal JOURNEY”…