Art as HEALER-

ART PHOTOS 2ND SET.-1I have been away for quite awhile  but as most of you know me, I tend to write when I feel I’m ready to write about something I’m passionate about and also my art life has taken quite an amazing turn and I’m like a speeding bullet doing assemblage, mixed media, doing shows etc- So that also plays part of why I don’t write as much but I do love to write- This subject has been on my mind for quite awhile and last night while I lay in bed I kept thinking about and I almost got up to write but I was in pain with my foot joints that have started to suddenly come around, welcome getting older! ( lol)-

As an artist I believe that art heals in many ways- I can actually account for it through my rough times in life weather it was health, depression, sadness, a loss,  getting upset, work, people, you name it, art has always been their for me- The trick about art being a healer is that you have to trust it and you have to BELIEVE in it to help you out- Faith plays another important part of the process- The thing that you need to start however you want! Their is no excuse for not making art your healer- Here are a few suggestions I have used for myself- So lets start with Art Journal: Amazing way to start your healing- I would say this one would be my first choice for someone that needs to start somewhere- The fun of art Journal is that  you CREATE it all! You make the journal how ever you like. You don’t even need a fancy journal to do it- All you need is the a blank book or a note book from the 1.oo store and your willingness to let the healing start-  Their are no rules to this process cause it’s your own personal journey-  you can write a lot or you can write little and let you art speak for itself- Art Journaling is quite addictive- You can also do collage work with your art journal- How ever you are feeling at the moment you can find the right image or cut out words and paste them to tell the story of how you are feeling at that moment- Remember that your art will look different all the time depending on what you may be going through! If you are feeling down, depress, sad, etc your art will start some what a bit dark or your words may be harsh but don’t let that stop you please! That’s the process that needs to happen and it’s the only way to heal yourself when you let it all out- Even if it’s scribbles or what ever let it take its course and don’t stop it! With time and patience you will see your art journal evolve into to so many aspects of yourself- It’s an amazing DISCOVERY!! You need to just do it and let your feelings do the expression, don;t hold back, let it all out.  My other outlets have also been suddenly painting abstract! Not even thinking but letting myself go on a canvas and NOT holding back- Don’t worry on how it looks, cause it may not be all that pretty but we are not looking for that when you start- We re looking for an outlet to let it out and just let it be- with time you will see quite the process and with time you will get yourself out of that DARK PLACE that seems not to never go away- Remember this: Light turns to DARK and Dark turns to Light- They both feed from each other- one doesn’t stay longer than the other they work with each other and that is the same with using art for healing. You need that DARK place to learn the way- Sometime as weird as it may sound when we come into CHAOS with our life, we need to be OPEN to what it is trying to tell us- Always know that in the darkest places we find ourselves! and we find our strength! and we learn form that weakness! and the weakness makes us stronger!- Mixed media is another wonderful outlet for art healing- Again with this technique we are NOT looking for  a beautiful piece of art work or perfection- We are learning to heal from our conversation with our own ART- With Mixed media you can let yourself go and have fun! Paste images, words, paint on them, do circles, add gesso, textures, write some more, scratch it, I mean the ideas are endless and so much fun- Another outlet for me was writing how I felt- Honest true writing just on a paper, letting it all out just like in a journal- I was brutally honest with myself on how I felt and why- I got to learn so much of me through all these outlets and another I can’t forget is take walks in nature and if you are not close to nature make time for you to heal, find nature anywhere you are- It’s free for all of us, talk with nature tell her how you feel, and most important pay attention very close attention to what is happening around you and in you in those moments- You will get messages from things around and your feelings will change- Unfortunately I’m not an Art Therapist and I’ve thought about many, many times but with all I’m doing right now and going back to school for Art Therapy I might be putting to much on my plate at the moment but then again, the other day I was hearing the Delilah show by the way an amazing woman and so inspirational- She was talking to a girl that wanted to tell her dad how grateful and how much she loved him for raising 6 girls all by himself and now he’s going back to school! I was like, wow that’s quite something to feel inspired by- So, you never know- I let my Journey take me that direction if it’s meant to happen- So yes all these techniques and I’m sure many others out their helped me tremendously!!- You CAN’T put any excuses if you decide to go this route- You don’t need to spend all this money to start unless you decide to do an art therapist but also give your own art a try, YES we are all artist within our SOUL!- the only difference is that for me, I tapped into them, I  discovered my forte in the art world, what I love to do and what I don’t like to do, what I’m good at, what I’m bad at and what I’m GREAT at!- So find it in yourself, take chances, take risk and don’t think it needs to be perfect cause we  are not looking for that, though the process I will assure you will find the medium you connect with and if it’s more than once, heck even better- learn each one, look into you tube videos for inspiration and free classes, use Pinterest for Inspiration and ideas, just have fun, find yourself and heal yourself as you go along- and if by any chance you feel this is not helping then please get HELP- It’s out their for all of us- Now with all this said, you need to remember that is all on how much input you put to make it happen- You need to work on it and learn everyday from your art and always stop at some point and see how you feel, always do this through the process, trust yourself and have fun- It’s all about learning and connecting- I have been through some tough times in my life and I mean tough and ART has always helped me out- It’s always their for the taking, it can be done with what ever means you have- It doesn’t have to be fancy or expensive, you just need to make it happen and learn along the way- I’m so hoping that by next year I can start teaching art in a healing process and even though I’m not an Art Therapist their are many ways to go about it without having to recommend medications or conversations as a patient- I can do it with my own personal techniques and enthusiasm- I can teach you along your journey ways to discover your personal artistic self that will lead you to a healing- I have a few workshops next year for the first time! But not as a healing art- Yet I will incorporate some of it in the workshop with my assemblage and mixed media techniques- It’s all about discovering yourself through art- As an artist I believe that my work is more of a connector with the audience or buyer- My work is about letting the piece pick you and not you pick the piece- It will do that and it will shake you and make you ask questions and even you believes- It will comfort you and it will make you feel good and also it will teach you in many ways- I LOVE what I do, I LOVE that people get a kick out of my art- Some people find it fascinating and others find it amazingly powerful- My work is not for everyone and it doesn’t have to be” remember that with your art”- I love what I do and it shows on my work, my hard work shows on my work, my passion and devotion as well- But I do know that my work has become a healer to many- It can be emotional healing, mental healing, positive healing, creative healing and it has motivated many to start doing something or get back into art- If I can do that to so many people, then my purpose in this world is opening with abundance and my God given gift is moving forward- That’s my purpose in this lifetime- I’m blessed I have found it and we all have- Follow what you love most, take the leap of FAITH and TRUST! The rest will follow right into your HEART, SOUL and your personal JOURNEY-…..












My work can be purchased in my Etsy shop” Gypsy Loft 8″







Mother Nature and her teachings-

DSC_2887Yesterday, I decide that I needed to take a walk- I had just woken up and that urge came to me, so I got my gear on and headed upwards towards the Mesa-As my usual daily talk with the Universe and God, I had no destination what so ever. I just needed to get away and breath some fresh air and if along the way I found treasures, even better. I did take my camera just in case I saw something amazing to photograph, but honestly when you do these types of hikes, it’s just you and maybe a journal and that is all. I start to talk about my frustrations, my visions, why my art is not selling fast enough, why this, why that, the struggles, etc.  I was hoping for some vision quest along the way since I’m on 10 acres and it’s all on Sacred land from the Ancestors that once roamed this earth. But I believe that you get that sort of vision when you are either ready to accept it or you still need to learn other things along the way that will open your mind, heart and soul- As I’m walking up, my first stop was the treasures of finding dried up Cactus! Bingo, I said- Well, remember I have a small bag, my camera inside( not small) and my Journal to write notes. I’m like how in the heck do I do this now? If I don’t take this opportunity I won’t find this area again, cause I’m just walking with no direction-So, took my camera out and decided to pull out 12 pieces of dried up cactus!- yeahhhhh, fun right!- Well, the bag is not even big enough to hold them so, that was quite the Journey!- So camera on my hand, my walking stick, 12 pieces of cactus and me hiking! You would think that at some point I would leave these darn things somewhere, but noooooo- I would probably get hurt before leaving my treasures behind!

-Along the way I start noticing little signs of things. Yet, not putting my mind all together cause I’m also noticing the beautiful art Mother nature does as well. These twisted branches from her Cedar trees that look like sculptures in the woods- I’m in silent taking all this beauty in and thinking. I’m snapping my life away at these amazing twisted branches but I’m also seeing other things that connect with my thinking and my questions- I start noticing the way nature finds it’s way through the wood-  I’m on a cliff and I see a tree hanging to dear life from the edge but not only that it’s also blooming! It’s alive and hardly touching any soil. Moving along, I see another answer, a cactus between to rocks that were apart like 5 inches away, and in between their was some soil  on the rock and that cactus was living and growing! Need to say that it’s growing in the middle of the 2 rock with maybe 10 feet below!- So, through all my hiking I was seeing these Miracles and Hopes of life itself all around me. The wind started to blow very hard making the most amazing sounds to my ear and I knew that I had to stop- Mother nature was telling me, stop and ponder upon all you have seen and connect it with your thoughts and answers you are seeking from your questions- This is what I got back:

” In life we each have our ups and downs, we are all looking for answers to the why’s and the what’s. In my case, I was asking about my art life and my life in general. The frustrations about it and how I was feeling very discouraged from it, but as I saw all these signs around me, nature told me that as long as you have a spark of HOPE in you, you can’t let go! That was exactly what I was seeing around me-Nature never lets go and it holds on to dear life blooming with amazing flowers as her reward. Sometimes it takes her awhile to adjust but no matter what, she always does it! With strong winds, with harsh weather, with boulders of rock on her, she makes it through!-She and everything around her becomes one into power- It’s just not her alone, but it’s everything around her that makes her survive- Just like us, we are all in this together and we each help each other get by in many different ways, but it’s never alone even though you may think so-“- So next time think about Nature and her survival skills, you will be so amazed how we can apply it to our life, and next time you think, it can’t be done, think twice- It is possible and it can be done as long as you have that spark of HOPE inside you-…

I leave you with my Journey in a Blk/Wht vision…














Evolving as an Artist-

I know it’s been quite awhile, but it seems that I write when a deep part of me tells me to- I have been through some transitions in my life as an artist- It took me awhile to say that word” I’m an Artist”. I no longer think upon it when people as me what do you do?- Before I was like, hmmm, I’m an artist?- Lol- Now is I’m an ARTIST!- It feels real good to say it, feel it and mean it- As any artist, we all know that our art is not for everyone nor is intended to make sense of it either- What you or I may not like, someone would love. My art has evolved in tremendous ways. I can see the evolution of it and I honestly love that in my work. If you know me and my art, I tend to be connected with a Spiritual and Nature realm. Yet I also can be a bit whimsical and surreal at times- I’ve created these amazing pieces based on Shrines and Milagros- That type of work is geared towards a Hispanic religious feel. But what I find fascinating is that many of my clients and customers are not even religious, nor spiritual and some are even Jewish but for some reason they find themselves lost in that world of mine- They become addicted to my style and my work- They often tell me, wow, Laz- This piece of yours is calling me and I have no idea why, cause I’m not into this type of art, but it’s very powerful and strong…I love that! That fact that my work can move your soul into my world, tells me I’m on the right track- Not only that but that is the purpose of ART! It moves you, it heals you, it finds you and it hits you right in the core of your heart!- I started out doing small wall Milagros and now I’m doing Shrines and just amazing pieces that make you feel something inside- Through this new Journey of my life, I have meet some wonderful connections, new friends and a new Inspiration to my art-.. I feel that my  art is slowly taking a turn around and more and more people are just fascinated by it- That makes me want to keep creating and getting deeper in my passions- I pour in my work all Heart and Soul . I couldn’t have it any other way, I can’t expect any less than the best of me- So enter this realm of my work of wonders, spirituality, curiosity and peace that seems to tap into peoples Soul…Laz













Happy Thanksgiving-

Wishing you all a wonderful Thanksgiving!- I will be leaving today and will not have access to a laptop, disconnecting my life until Friday! Hope this Thanksgiving is spent with your family or friends and may it be a blessed one- Hugs to all. Laz




Lost in The Woods- My Journey…

I’m trying to understand so many things about my Journey- That’s just how I feel, lost in the woods and trying to find my way back. I’m one to say that sometimes” We need to lose ourselves to find ourselves”- My creative mind is in a cage of Chaos. Many people find one medium to their art life but for me, that seems unreal!. I just can’t, my mind won’t let me, my hands won’t let me, my eye’s won’t let and my Soul won’t let me. I have tried and I just can’t do it. I wonder sometimes if being a creative soul is more of a damnation than a gift. My mind won’t stop seeing everything in a creative way. One moment I’m doing Collage and then suddenly I’m doing gift tags, and then I jump into doing my hand made cards, and then I see a blank canvas and I’m doing Abstract, Mixed Media and then I’m thinking I can do Encaustic, and so on. It’s a constant battle my Creative mind, my Soul and how much I can handle it all. When I decide to make the jump with no safety net moving to Santa Fe, I had a vision. I wanted to live in the mountains, I wanted to open up my own cool, funky little shop and I wanted to teach. I took out all my savings and without thinking it to many times, I decided to jump! I left a great paying job doing displays, windows, and managing a team to make this vision possible. Don’t get me wrong I have no regrets what so ever on what I did!- I’m a risk taker and with that said, I have been able to learn so much about myself. Now I’m here, trying to make connections, letting the Universe know my plans, my vision, my passion and wanting to give back to others with my talents. It has been some what tough. Not many people care to help or lead you to the right information. I’ve been doing the Sunday Artist market every Sunday and even though it’s a good venue to do, I feel that from Monday to Saturday I’m missing out in selling my art and I can’t find anything that I can afford to even take my next jump cause people think that If you live in Santa Fe,you can pay 1,500 dollars for a 300 sq ft space! People seem to be selfish and not even try to work with others who are trying to make their DREAMS happen. Then they think that because you live in the mountains with a killer view that LIFE is just perfect and that you wake up everyday with your coffee and sit outside contemplating life with no worries- Well, the wake up call is that living in the mountains and being nurtured by Nature doesn’t solve your problems- It helps you to some point to heal your Soul, but it doesn’t solve the problems. So much to grasp at this moment in my life when I’m about to let go of my late 40’s and start the 5O!- Sometimes I feel I left some part of myself in some road I may have stopped a long the way to rest and forgot to wait for it cause I got in the car and hauled ass!- I question at times, I’m I running to fast? I’m even thinking to ahead of my thoughts? I’m not trying to sound that I’m complaining about my life cause I’m very blessed and very lucky to have this opportunity and have a creative mind to make beautiful things to make others smile and feel good. I know how lucky I’m and every night before I go to sleep I let God know how great-full  I’m  for all he has given me and even when I have the time to open my porch doors and sit outside with the stars that look like the most beautiful art work over me and let the Universe know that I’m also great full for all this!- Even when times are hard, I seem to make it through- I live with very little now days and a very simple life. So, yes I’m grateful and “NO” I’m not complaining.- I’m just wondering if I’m doing things right? I guess being lost in the woods is another different Journey that connects in finding that other path which will connect to one. Maybe I’m feeling that it’s my time to shine and I don’t see that light or it’s very dim. Maybe being lost in the woods will bring me back to that person I once left behind, I guess time will tell. I hope that this leap of Faith I took is the right road that will lead me back and connect me with my missing links….


The Coming of Fall-

I took a trip today towards ” Barrilas Peak” to watch the Aspens dressed in their Fall attire. What a beautiful trip through the mountains and small towns. As I was driving I did notice that quite few of the Aspens were bare down to their limbs, yet still they hold a sculpture body!- One thing I have noticed is how the Aspen trunks at time have some sort of design like if the Aspens were artist painting on each other-I always notice an eye just looking right at ya, and who I’m I to say is not? I like to keep my mind wild and IMAGINATIVE!- I’m so blessed to be surrounded by such beauty. Everyday I wake up with a huge smile on my face and every night I go to sleep telling God” Thank you for all this”- Can’t imagine not having it any other way. I’m connected to nature and nature is connected to me- I was able to find some beautiful Aspens still dressed in their Fall fashion, even thought we are not into full blown Fall, they lose their leaves so fast that you need to capture it ASAP-..Fall is my favorite season over all- I love the crisp air going through my open windows, I love to see the pallet of colors that it creates, after all Mother Nature is a true artist!-.. Enjoy my journey… Laz





Tapping into what you learn from your Journey-

It took me awhile to say I’m an Artist, I’m a Photographer, I’m a Mixed Media and Collage artist- I was born with this gift that I can say for sure. I also believe that each one of us have an Artistic or Creative side within our SOUL!- It can be a writer, a photographer, artist, crafting, designing, collage, scrap-booking, jewelry, etc- It’s our duty and I say duty cause no one can tell you when it should happen, to find that calling. Some of us tap into it from an early age, some still searching for it and others pass it by- I have a quote that I created- ” You say that you are not a CREATIVE person. How do you know? The moment you hear that knock, you don’t even open the door!”…Oh I so believe in this. How many people I have encounter and they say, wow I wish I can do the type of art you do, but I’m not artistic nor creative at all- Right their you have locked up that door and threw away the key!.. You need to search it, you need to try things and within that you will find what is that you connects with you-

My Journey has been quite a rare and AMAZING one. I started out wanting to be a Scientist, then an Architect, after it was Fashion that ruled over it all- That is part of my DNA cause of my mom’s sister that was a Couture seamstress and I still remember in her Atelier in Venezuela watching her bead dresses by hand!!!!! I was like Wow!. I tried so hard to become a Fashion Designer but not having the money to make it happen was tough plus In that time telling your mom you wanted to be a Fashion Designer was like digging your own grave at an early age! -lol lol. So what I did was I became a visual merchandiser by saying a white lie! I told the first store I worked for that I have done it before. Now, the wildest thing of all this was that I knew that I can do it! So, she looks at me and tells me, oh you have? I think she some what  knew I was lying and tells me, ok so you see those mannequins their, I want you to pull the fashion , dress them and call me. Suddenly I was HOLY CRAP!!! What have I done?..I have never, ever in my life undressed a mannequin not to mention pull her her apart!.. But again, I knew I could do it and with full force into the project I did 4 mannequins, even 2 that were on top of a ledge. I was like, did I just do this? She comes over and looks at me with mouth open and say’s when can you start?…That’s how my Journey into visual happened.


This Journey became my tight rope for one reason, I thought to myself, well if I can’t be a Fashion Designer, at least I will be close enough to work with Fashion!-( Don’t let that happen- it stopped me from many things). From Visual merchandiser, to Lead visual stylist, to Visual Manager and Visual Director, this was over 25 years in the field. I worked so hard, I took so much crap, I was used, I was lied , I was taken advantage through this journey but every time I fell to the floor, I got up, dusted myself up and kept going. No one was going to get in my way. I worked for Jean Nicole, Macy’s, Nordstrom, Jpeterman, Zara, St Johns in 5th ave, Fendi, Armani, Bloomingdales, I freelanced and my end of the Journey was with Neiman Marcus. I love what I did and I knew that I was danmmmm good at it! Cause I believed in myself and I got to the top not by being someone’s favorite but by busting my ASS!!!. I learned so much from all this. I worked with great teams, to horrible ones and certain one’s that I guess thought because I was their manager I should do their work. The one thing I learned from all this was, to be fare, always try my best to be a good manager, help others and not kiss anyone’s ass either!… As a manager I hold you responsible for your actions and the type of work you put out their! I had a wonderful mentor that made me try everything in the field. I loved doing window’s and fashion, and he told me, you are AMAZING at what you do, but you need to step out of the box and learn the ropes! I thanked him for that. Their was no excuses, I was in charge of lighting, styling, cleaning up, etc. In Neiman Marcus I was burnt out. My team was good and with the exception of one that was great, one other was like, hell to me, yet I respect people and one thing I hate is, do not take me for some stupid person or take advantage of me. This team was old school, they have been in the store for over 10 years, even more. It was so hard to mold them. I didn’t want to do it any longer, I left after 2 1/2 years to come into this new Journey I have been tapping along the way.. I have no regrets at all.




From Photography, to Mixed Media artist, Collage, and Abstract- This has been my calling. Look at how long it took me to tap into what I’m doing now, but I never doubted itself, I never let anyone say what was good for me or not, I kept learning, experimenting, opening doors, trying new things, letting go what I didn’t like and becoming the person I’m right now at 49!- It wasn’t easy, it’s been hard times, good times and great times. Over all, the trick is on how you tackle each thing. I’m still learning and at times I feel like giving up, but I look back at all the hard work I have put and that along the way everything that happened was suppose to be the way it was- I may have had a vision of what I wanted to be, but God has the edit part of the film!- I’ve lived in so many places- from, Miami,  New York, San Francisco, Houston, Dallas, Albuquerque, Reno, St Louis and now Santa Fe- Each one giving me a new meaning to my Journey, each one having to be their to tap into what I wanted and what I didn’t want, each one to get me to where I’m right now as I’m writing this long post, but I wouldn’t have it any other way!- Their is so much I still have to do in this world!- My 1/2 part of my purpose is to bring happiness to the world with my work, my art and photography. The other 1/2 is learning more, believing in myself, taking risks and chances and making myself a better person for me and of course loving who I’m with all my faults and errors!. At 49 I bring to this world that has so much Chaos, Hurting, Disasters, and Horrible people that hurt others, my art and my photography- I’m not a fine  art artist nor a fine arts photographer, I’m my own artist and photographer, I’m not here to compete with anyone or make money be my #1 out look to what I do. What I do is my PASSION and my PASSION follows me through my journeys. I’m just starting to live my DREAM pretty much with nothing, but it is my DUTY to follow it wherever it takes me and search into more opportunities!- So I will leave you with another quote I created- And remember, follow your DREAMS and trust your Soul, cause they know what you should be doing!…” It Doesn’t matter what ANYONE thinks about you! At the end of the day, it’s your LIFE, it’s your DECISION and it’s your own personal JOURNEY”…